day four is kind of a bore

I had to think long and hard about whether or not I really had anything to say today. honestly, I'm feeling very melancholy...it's not that I don't think I can do this, because I know from experience that I can, it's starting to be a question of whether or not I want to.

Maybe instead of starving myself for the better part of a month, I should spend the time learning to be happy with the body that I have instead of trying to change it into something that requires...all of THIS.

bleurgh...I'm not gonna quit, but Jesus Christ what I wouldn't do for some fucking hummus.